Pear Drop Pheobe Elena Tyler

hi- ok so i just got home and my mum has completely slaughtered me cause i was ment to be home earlier "for the dog" stupid dog i swear my parents love him more than me - he can do no wrong in there eyes!! unlike me who has managed to do everything "wrong" I got "The Secret" for christmas ( the secret 101: where the energy you give off effects your future and whether it is good or bad. So for example if you feel good and are giving off good vibes -good things will happen to you, and it works the other way round so if you feel bad all the time only bad things will happen to you.) and i started reading it and thought it was quite good and ive been trying to stick to it but PLeeeeaaaaaass! how impossible is it to stay happy alllllll the time!!! Very , very impossible beyond impossible so now when i feel unhappy i feel bad cause i'm not sticking to "the secret" its like my brains going on some kind of guilt trip on me. so i feel guilty about not sticking to "the secret" which makes me feel evan worse- i'm not suprised if half the people who read this book ended up killing themselves! so yeah i'm in the process of building the ultimkate playlist so i can sit in my room and listen ot it while eating chocolate, while rhi and mum are out at the hairdressers. Holy shite i've forgotten to check if i need to get lauras god damn balloon ohhhhh! ok i leave you now in a state of mildly suicidal have a nice tuesday night and remeber vampire diaries are on at 9pm on ITV2 the destroyer xx listening to her ultimate playlist p.s ok so i have just tried to upload a completely fitting image for this blog and blogger has gone AWOL on me - today is not my day x